Are you a sports fan? Tell us about fandom. If you’re not, tell us why not.
I am very competitive. That’s why I don’t play sports any more; in fact I stopped competitive sports in elementary school, when I didn’t make the first string volleyball team, despite being the most consistent server and best spiker on the squad.
It hurt too much to fail. I would put my heart and soul into a sport, become frighteningly single-minded— which I didn’t like either— and become despondent if I made a mistake, or someone else made a mistake, that caused us to lose.
To hell with sportsmanship, the social value of teamwork, and the thrill of the play. I only want to win.
I know it’s just a game. I know that that fear of failure affects all competitors. But for me, that little ball of stress and dread of loss always casts a deep shadow.
P.S. Go Cubs.